updates.

14th Feb '10; Sunday.
valentine's. thought i couldn't meet baby boo. he called at 4pm. all of a sudden. and then asked me out. and i was from hmmm... to WHOOOO~!!!! hee! he fetched me from void deck and we went to meet yan and yani at mustafa center. wait for them to finish eating then off to their place for a while. baby boo had something to discuss with yan. then off for romance. :DDDD and then home. mum and dad are such a nag! listened for a while then off to "sleep".
15th Feb '10; Monday.
4am in the morning, baby boo called. he just got back from serangoon with afad. and he said that the card was so sweet. ((: and he wore the bangle already. :DDDDDD he said, "patut lah u slalu tanya i pakai gelang ke tak..." and all i did was smile. :DDDD then at 7am, mum woke me up to go kubur. haiyah.. i delayed until around 8plus when abang got back then i got up and showered. swear i didn't have the mood at all. we went to first abang's, shaz's late dad's, uncle ayie's and arwah tok man's. cleaned the area then off to jurong point. everybody including fadhli was hungry. initially wanted to eat at banquet. but then closed for CNY. so off to swensens instead. fadhli insisted on eating at LJS. haiyah... this boy uhh... when eating, call from grandmama saying that grandada was having fever. so we had to go over because some people were not responsible enough to take care of their father! after hair cut for abbang, fadhli and dad, we went to grandada's place. and brought him to the hospital. got back at around 12+midnight. and called baby boo. afad asked us out to sentosa. couple's retreat. LOL! but i know i couldn't go. firstly, because parents don't allow. secondly, because grandada wasn't feeling well and i wanted to take care of him. so two days of not meeting baby boo. :(
16th Feb '10; Tuesday.
mum was still on PH. then lepaked at home. sleep, eat, sleep eat, sleep, wake up, got ready for grandada's.
17th feb '10; Wednesday.
mum and dad's 20th wedding anniversary. got back home.
18th Feb '10; Thursday.
went for check up. FUCKING DISAPPOINTED WITH MYSELF! hais... met baby boo. and got him all upset too. :(((((
19th Feb '10; Friday.
socio exam. nad's place to help with clean up to prepare for today's kak nadya's birthday party and maulud.

going to get ready for the party.
supposed to come early.
toodles.

dear love angels of God,
please tell baby boo how sorry i am for everything. be it my fault or not. im working very hard on getting to make your dreams a reality. and please... tell him how much i love him!

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY.

happy valentine's all! a love day, more lovely spent with your loved ones. unfortunately, my hopes of spending today with baby boo were crashed. he had to work. finding extra money.
i finally told him whatever i felt about 'baby'. i have been wanting to do so for a very long time. and finally, on the eve of valentine's, i did so.

dear love angels of God, thank you for your effort in making my dreams this valentine's come true. sadly, thin didn't turn out as planned. it okay though, I THINK! despite being disappointed, i know that things happens for a reason. just keep protecting him from all harm and keep him safe. if you ever have the chance, tell him that i love him so much!

b,








I LOVE YOU.

i miss baby boo.

swear to god i miss baby boo!
:(
he hasn't call me since we parted last night and he went to work. then his prepaid low. i toped up for him alrd. hmmm... waiting for him to return my call now. :(

loving you too much.

yesterday's plan was not achieved. but managed to achieve it today! WITH BABY BOO! :DDDDDD smiles miles long. whee~!!

i told him that i was hoping to get to watch it with him. and he made it a reality. told him to call me as soon as he wakes up. but he texted me instead. asking me to meet him at woodlands at 1pm. and at that point of time i was finishing my project. the v'day card to be exact. then i waited for dyanah to come back then we went out together. and we left home at about 12.10pm. WTH?! how am i supposed to reach woodland from eunos in less than an hours time? and so dyanah decided to give me a lift to commonwealth mrt. before we board the cab, baby boo called to ask where was i. and i said im on my way to take the cab. and he said, what for? just take the train. and i replied, im late already what do you expect? after dropping off at commonwealth mrt, i trained down to woodlands to meet him. he was shocked by the fact that i took such a short time to reach. and we COINCIDENTALLY wore black together. ((: PERFECT! got the tickets and went for lunch at KFC. we weren't in favour of that fast food restaurant. but yeah, i was craving for it and he knows it. so he said he layankn. thanks ehh...... after makan, smoked and then toured around the causeway point. we had so much time. an hour before the movie starts, we decided to play arcade games. and he chose to play tennis. the freaking game console was super slow that even after half an hour, he havent finish playing the game. what i mean here was that it was literally s-l-o-w m-o-t-i-o-n. haiyah... after a while, we decide to leave it playing on its own. so after that we went for a smoke and then up to the cinemas. surprisingly, the cinema halls aren't opened yet. so we waited outside. and he decided to get us some popcorns and wedges. the movie was great. funny like hell siah! haha! TAYLOR SWIFT mcm BIMBO! LOL.after movies, we went smoke and bussed home. baby boo stopped halfway at toa payoh. he had to go to work. as soon as he got off the bus, i feel the incompleteness in me again. i felt empty. like as though im like empty lahh. i bussed the rest of the way home myself. was supposed to meet dyanah, but dont know why she didn't reply to my msges. so yahh.. then thats it. today is a wonderful day.

dearest baby boo,
i really enjoyed today. despite you being so gatal. i loved it. i your imperfections that i love most. but sometimes its kinda irritating lah. heeh. i hope we can have a better time this sunday. loves you sooo much!

dear love angels of God,
please let this sunday be a reality and not just a dream. like i'vesaid before, it my first valentine's with baby boo ad i dont want to disappoint him. i want it to be the best he's ever had. please... can i plead you...?

g'night cupid. safe guard my hubby while im not with him.

Valentine's Day.

today is the release of Valentine's Day!
OMG! hah1 baby asked me out to it. but he made no promises. lucky he didn't lah. he only woke up at around maghrib like that. like 7plus pm. ape saje yg die buat pon tak tau. hmm.. now its my turn to ask him out to it tmrw! and i really hope to get to fulfill it!!!! nak sgt tgk ngn die. last week ckp ngn nad nak tgk. tapi i say i want to watch with shahnor. then she was like... 'alah... susah ah org ade matair ni... sume dgn matair..' and all i did was laugh. then bile b ajak tgk cite tu semlm i was like, seriously?! OMG! NAK NAK NAK! i'd skip school to watch it with him sehh. but no need for skipping of schools. dah tak skula ponn! hehh. abey ckp org takde duit. b, i ade 50 lah. tnk percaya dtg sini tgk. kalau malas and still tnk percaya, tnye je i. hehh.
dah lah. for today, no school. didn't go out. because i was supposedly waiting for b to call. but he didn't he slept the whole day today! haiyah.. he slept, i also slept. LIKE SWINE! lps mkn lunch je tido sampai ke asar! OMG! FAT PIG SIAHH!! haha! farah didn't go to school. because she was 'supposed' to go for an appointment. but skali her appointment is due on sat. LOL! so she temaned me at home lorh.

dear love angels of God, please please keep my baby safe. and make sure tomorrow's plan of catching Valentine's Day a reality. :))))))

3rd monthasary.

two hours of nursing lab in school and end at 1100hrs. then off for brunch at koufu with the geng. and off to toa payoh to meet baby boo. makan-ed at macs then off to Lido. as soon as i stepped at that building, the memories of me and wahid came rushing into my mind. one by one. but WTF?! i'm with baby boo at that time and it was our third monthasary. so i didn't allow any of such things to happen. it was our first date to the movies. i gave him his 3rd monthasary present before watching the movie. attached the keychain to his key. we catched My Ex. it was scary lah whey! and i keep covering my face with my cardigan. xP after the movies, we didn't know where to go. so, we walked around town and finally decided to go to Pasir Ris Beach. trained down from orchard. damn, the train was filled with people! i hated it! from Pasir Ris MRT, we walked down to Pasir Ris Beach. through the mini 'nature reserve'. talked as we walked. got to know many facts i didn't know from baby boo. and when we finally reached the beach, there was like very little people lah. ;DDD i wanted to sit at the water breaker. but baby boo insisted that we sit at the bench instead. fine then. he ate some nachos and off he went to sleep on my lap. the wind was super shiok. as he slept, i played with his hair. and i attempted to draw his face. hheh. left the beach at around 2030hrs. walked out to the bustop. he actually wanted to take the sungei api-api route. but then i was like, precautious. so we took another route. takut lah wheyy!! hah! on our way out, i told him how the keychain was supposed to be. as in it's interchangeable; one side reads shahnor and the other reads yasmeen. and he was kinda amazed by that. hah! and i told him it could be a whistle also. but his keychain was already chipped. he dropped it at lido just now. :( this that this that, and i finally reached home at 2200hrs. both of us were tired like hell. all the walking.
sleep time now!

baby,
i really enjoyed today so much. our first movie date. and really, it was my first time going to the beach with my love. i hope we could do this again somtime. (: and tomorrow's valentine's day movie date, i hope we could make it! LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

KRIS ALLEN.

today, naddy a.k.a skater girl got to meet KRISS ALLEN! cool shit or what?!? hah! as said, school ended at 3pm. and after which, we went to withdraw money and then bought kris allen's gift, which is a puzzle where we can put our personalised message. and at the same time, i went to print photos for mummy and daddy's wedding anniversary card as well as baby boo's v'day card. will upload pictures of it in a later part of the post. then off to koufu for lunch. before ordering our food, we pieced up the puzzle and i helped nad to write the message. then nad had to go off because fadhil fadaroz was waiting for her at CITY HALL! hah! then i ate my chicken rice. and off to tamp to meet ayda and dyanah. collect the bracelet. now, everything is perfect. as in the things i intend to get for baby boo both for v'day and our 3rd monthasary. from the cards, to the keychains to the bracelet. the card is hand made. from plain paper into a card. message written using alphabet macaroni. :DDDDD and nad and ammar called me 'pak sanggup' for that. hah! whatever mann!
after what happened last night, i didnt call or text baby boo the whole day today, when either one of us are supposed to call the other before he goes to work or before i go to school. until he called me at 1plus pm when i was in bio lect. and i was like, 'hah! tau pon kau nak carik aku!'. LOL. then he texted me and asked what time i finish school today, and i replied 3pm. haiyah... thought he wanted to fetch me ke ape. skali... hahah! nvm. tak mengharapkan die amek pon.

BCLS TOMORROW! :DDDDD can't wait!

kay.
here's the pics of the v'day gifts.

the envelope first.

it reads; to you, whom i give my ♥ to.

and that is the outermost piece.

my valentine. ♥.

how the card's supposed to be.

better view.

the message inside.

made of macaroni alphabets.

the keychain.

the keychain which is inter-changeable. one side reads Shahnor and the other reads Yasmeen. both keychains same. (: ♥.

the bracelet; top part; engraved, Shahnor.

the bracelet; bottom part; engraved, Yasmeen.

better view of his name.

better view of my name. ♥.

dear love angels, please help me. i really hope to spend this valentine's day with him. it is our first and please don't make it the last. ♥♥♥♥♥.

fight.

how should i start? what should i talk about?
hmm...
exams round the corner. this means that holidays are also round the corner. after which is attachments. then new semester = year 2! :D
i'd better start mugging if i want to do well. *wish to get into the director's list.*
relationship with Shahnor Abbas hasn't been going well these past few days. since Thursday to be exact. and things got worse since Sunday! the anger turned from a spark to a live fire! super duper mad at him! grrr! and tomorrow's our third monthasary. (i haven't start on the card yet. has always been concentrating on v'day's card. and what more the fight is a turn off for me to make the card.)
mum and dad's 20th wedding anniversary is coming. don't know how to celebrate. we'll probably go out for dinner together and i'll just make a card for them.
SCHOOL STARTS AT 1pm TODAY! and end at 3PM! OMG! that is so effing eff! urgh!

thanks dee, far, kakak eiyra and fir.

dee and far had the same apparent reaction after hearing the story.
kakak eiyra said, don't be too loyal lah. you're still young. enjoy first. dont get too serious with one guy only. then i was like, how siah?! wait i wont get married like that. because ppl will think oh the type of girl i am. she said to only be serious if that guy, in future, will want you to become his wife. must tell him that before hand. but i guess now its too late. i was like, KAKAK! why didn't you tell me about this earlier on before i really get serious with my feeling and relationship with shahnor?!?!?!
seriously! WHY?!?!
and this was what fir said. :)
John 'Soap' MacTavish: "These muppets don't even know we're here." says:
"he nvr mataer with him before." tats gay
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
shut up lah!
typo knn....!!!!
John 'Soap' MacTavish: "These muppets don't even know we're here." says:
here's the solution
1
ignore that bitch
2
trust ur instincts
simple as that
if ur instincts tell u to stay away from shah, do it
if ur instincts says otherwise, trust it and stay with him
situations like these, u have to rely on urself
dont be too quick to judge because of hearsay
ask urself, deep down inside
u will get an answer
u may not like it, but if its for the better, follow it
*some distracting topics*
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
ahahaha1
tak tau uhh..
fir, i know you're trying to get me to not think about that fucking girl. even if you're actually not, i still take it that way. :D but my brain blank uhh.
ive got sick and tired of being in a relationship and breaking up and the same thing over and over again!
sedih tau hidop mcm gini.
sorry uhh i had to pour it out to you...
John 'Soap' MacTavish: "These muppets don't even know we're here." says:
life's like tat
have u ever found the best shoes u've ever bought?
have u ever found the best bag u've ever bought
life is about trial and error
u win some, u lose some
yes it makes u sad, but it makes u stronger, knowing that u wouldnt repeat the same mistakes in the next relationship, thus making the next one a higher probability of it being "the one"
nothing's ever the best
but when u do find that someone who makes almost everything seem like they were the best, then consider him to be "the one"
no one said life was gonna be a stroll in a park
neither did anyone said ur gonna fail all the way in life
life isnt abt always falling down... its abt picking urself up, and not repeating the same mistakes, thus making it less likely to fall down again, if not less painful

thanks all for your support. seriously, this news haven't reach the ears of rinny, nadirah, ammar, AIEEN, KECHYQ and kak athiyah and all. i wonder how horrible things will turn out when they get to know. haiss..
can i love you all instead?! PLEASE!