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should i go "it's only tuesday... :(" or "OMG! IT'S TUESDAY ALREADY!"
two different expressions for two different reasons. the first one exist because i can't wait for it to be the weekends, then a new week, then i can meet baby boo. i'll be stuck here for all i know! URGH! being grounded sucks!
the second expressions exist CAUSE I HAVEN'T START A SINGLE THING ON MY 1500 WORD ESSAY! F***! I KNOW. i just don't know how to start until last night, kak athiyah came and gave me some ideas. thank you! <3 her many many! :DD i'll try my very best to coax myself into finishing doing the thing before saturday comes! seriously. i've got no time left. i've made up my mind that i want to be a homie this countdown. of course i feel guilty for not being able to celebrate it with baby boo. a new year resolution will be to spend more time with him. will try my very bestest best!

been having late nights these few nights. and am feeling very tired now. cant go to sleep now cause i just had my lunch. prangai tkmoh gemuk ehh ckp dgn dier! xP

*FUCK YOU LAH WAHID! GET OUT OF MY MIND YOU CB! *eh, slh. kau buto!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

to syahrin and cousin muhammad, happy birthday to you two! may you both be blessed with the best of health, wealth and iman. AMIN!

well, as for today, had a late breakfast at 1.30pm. then showered and supposed to be getting ready now. but i took the time to update bloggie first. im still like yesterday. keeping things to myself. i just don't know who i can share it with. i need to talk to someone who understands. someone close to my heart. and someone who is willing to lend a LISTENING ear to me. not a hearing one, but a listening one! it makes a huge difference, mind you. i starting to rebel to everything. im startng to throw tantrums. just be prepared for the worst. and please, don't mind me. :\

going out with my family. to i don't know whose wedding. swear i have no mood at all. fuck siah! swear i just don't feel like i need them! can i don't want them? URGH! life wouldn't be the way it is if not for them. seriously. the way people look at me, the way people trust me and the way people enjoymy company will totally be different.

no use talk about them.

merry christmas.

MERRY CHRISTMASS people!
don't really have the mood to blog right now.
i think its better off kept to myself.
even if it means to be depressed.

p.s, baby boo, i love you.

T-T-T-TIRED!!!

got back arnd 12+midnight last night. damn tired lah kan.

I PASSED MY LAB SKILLS TEST! :DDDDDDDD

after school ytd, naddy's sis and mum fetched. went to GIANT GIANT at tampines. felt like i was at malaysia. hehh. seriously, it was my first time there! -.- after which, ate prata telur with kari ikan. but the kari tasted sweet. no kick. off to naddy's place. rest for a while and out again to queenstown this time. trained there. i slept in the train. still felt tired when we reached there. :( then had to bus to the place. but we went on the wrong side. so had to cross over. i wasn't in much of the mood then. when we reached the place, we hurried coz the place like close at 6pm. and it was already 6then. lucky, the shop haven't close. if not... ok. then bussed down to paya lebar. baby said he'd reach office by 7. i reached there around 730. but he still havent reach. :( i wasted time and reached the bustop at around 750. thinking i was the late one. skali sit there for half an hour, he still nvr call. so i took the initiative to do so. he said, they were still on their way. :@ finally they reached around 855. thanks ehh. make me wait there for an hour plus. dah gitu tkpe. he called and asked me to call dayah, afad's fiance. he asked me to wait for her, then go their office. -.- i was already damn tired. and at the point i called dayah, she baru nak kluar rumah. hmm.. she reached at around 930. board the van while waiting for them to settle everything and off to mustafa centre! i wanted to eat thosai. but the man said, there's no thosai. :( after makan, we 'toured' the mustafa centre. round and round and round the car care area. hmm.. and it was already late for me. but nvm. i want to show my disinterest in the home. so that i can quickly get out of the place. i asked baby when is the day we can stay together, under one roof. and i knew the answers to it. GET OUT FROM THERE FIRST, THEN TALK! tu pon tak pandai pandai ke? haiyahh... got back and hit the bed straight away! damn! had to wake up early still. had school. but i don't have the mood to go. -.- met baby, took hp, and then thought of meeting naddy. end up, im here at the bedok library.

okay. nak buat health assasment skg!
BYE!

my sunday.

officially opened up my eyes to sunday at 1115am. had late night last night. after talking to baby booat arnd midnight, dee and i watched KAMI. stopped at around 1.30am. couldn't open up my eyes any longer. slept well until the oint where pijats attacked! GRRR!:@ woke up, showered and then facebooked until lunch, which is around 12noon. ate the food. as always, not filling. and off to collect my pocket money for the week. pity kakak eiyra. then off to et ready for wedding. kak julie and abg usop's wedding. tried to get hold of baby boo before going, but he didn't answer. too sick i guess. the wedding was great uhh. but no sight of a single fan there! because all of it turned into berkats. LOL. kompang, dikir, then photography sessions. and back. SWINED on farah's bed as soon as we touched down. tired. awaken when it was time for dinner. around 1830hrs. and slacked around till now. and up to this very moment, baby boo still havent answered my call. BLEARGH! gett well soon b!

randomly, i like the song on ijan's blog. -.-
she must be thinking that im a freak! lol. stalk her. well, i was just bloghopping.

TOMORROW'S LAB SKILLS ASSESMENT FOR ME! FUCK! I HAVEN'T REVISED ANYTHING YET!
ahh, just wish me luck ahh eh?

BYE!

this is how you spell boring.

as ALWAYS, days here are BORING! do i have to swear upon that fact? i woke up at 1130am today. showered, got 'ready', and lunch. had rice, kuah lontong and sambal belacan. *the indon version* not so filling. then had ice-cream. ohh guess what?! we can't have cold drinks here. pathetically due to a number of residents falling sick. PATHETIC! urgh!!! I WANT TO GO OUT!!! nak jumpa baby boo. didn't get to meet him yesterday. and now, he's sick. shucks! im feeling guilty enough for not being able to spend the weekend with him. and what now? he's sick and i can't be there with him also? FUCKED UP SIAH!!! what a rotten luck! ohh god! quickly get me out from here lah! PLEASE!!! ;( im tortured enough. not physically difinitely, but emotionally. all these happen for a reason, i know. but still, put a stop to it!

dahlah.
get well soon bby.
<3

missing you.

ytd was my 1st month with baby boo. definitely loving it lah kan? get to spend time with him. fecthed me from dayah's block and off we went to changi. packed nasi lemak and we 'picnic-ed' by the beach and had our very late dinner. :D the breeze; oh-so soothing. swear to god, i didn't want that moment to end. especially the part where he held me in his arms. be it on the mat or in the van. at that moment in time, the cold breeze didn't feel cold at all. i wish that it would just stay like that forever. but what was i thinking mayn? lol. i had to get home by then. tu pon he sent me late! hah! don't blame anyone but myself. so that was how i spent my first monthasary. though it was not just the two of us, but it was quite romantic and fun. heeh. ok dah. then back to the house of hell. i wasn't feeling good about it, tell you first! and he knew it. i didn't have to tell him. HE COULD READ ME!! OMG! is this freaky or what?! hah! well, i don't think so. okok. and so, today, somebody was so, i don't know how to describe. nak kate jealous tu tak lah kan. nak kate... nak kate... ah! tak tau lah ape nak kate. soon as i told him im on my way to tamp to meet ammar instead of the usual meet up with nad, his change of mood came in. hais... and i tried my very best to pujok him. haiyoh... die belum kenal ammar lagi kot? hah! then terbawak-bawak sampai ke ptg plak tuu. lol. hais... but finally, by the set of the sun, i managed to pujok him. hehh. somehow lah kn. kate wifey die pe?! :X hmmm... im so freaking exhausted lah. my sleep here were sleepless. if only you could understand. hah!

dah lah. bed is calling out to me.
*YASMEEN.....YASMEEN....~~~!
CRAP!



p.s. ILOVESHAHNORBINABBAS!

freezing in bedok library!

okay. so the plan of eating roti prata was not fulfilled. we did go to eunos, but the kedai ali baba roti prata not ready yet. :( i was so down! swear to god! anyways, had mee hoon goreng. naddy's mum's treat. and then off to parkway parade to fetch arfan, naddy's cousin. then sent ammar off and followed by me. went up to home, with no key, and put the mangoes outside the house. gosh!!!! swear im going to miss going home!!!!! I WANT TO GO HOME WITH NO NEED TO RETURN TO ANYWHERE LIKE JCH! urgh! do you people just understand how i feel? well, i don't think so. because you are not me. and you have never been me. and you never will be me. and you won't understand how i feel. SWEAR THAT TO GOD!
currently at bedok library, killing time while waiting for baby boo to call. i haven't talk to him since like ytd 2300hrs, where he sent me home.
*he called as i was typing the above staement!* xP
okok!
die dah call! heeh. he'll be fetching me later. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD see that lengthy smile on my face? hah! hais... sumpah i miss you siollll!!! heeh. as said in my personal message on MSN. wear i never get sick and tired of meeting you everyday! getting fatter tu ade arh! :p everyday i meet him will be = to everyday of having late night dinner. hah! and guess what?!?! while we, baby, his workmates, dayah and myself, were having dinner at mak's place last night, i saw abg sop lah sioll! sumpah! he and kak nana and syuhada! freak! that was not supposed to happen! and before that i already had a feeling that its not good. TOLD YA B! hah!
okay. and then off to sned dayah home and then my turn. he sent me to my doorstep! hah! naseb pintu tutup. kalau tk, mmg carik nahas! hmpf! ni nari jmpe lagik, cnfm pergi mkn lagik! i'll see what i can do to make myself hungry. xP something like pooping? :X

apape, i know, I WANT TO EAT PRATA TELUR WITH FISH KARI! nak jgk nak jgk nak jgk!!!! HMPH!

1st month.

today marks the first month of me being with baby boo. sumpah im feeling very delighted. so far, we've been through fights and misunderstandings. but we went it through well and fine. we overcome it well. yesterday was the first month i get to know him. yet it feels like i've known him for years. long-term in short lah kn. seriously, i've never been in a relationship with someone whom i barely know for a week or even a day. hah! no doubt bout that, i'm not regretting any decisions i made for us. sumpah b, i love you! heeh.

dah lah. nak mkn roti prata kat eunos dgn nad dgn ammar dgn kak nadya.
*slurps*

P.S. ILOVEYOU.

LAZY.

what a lazy weekend i'm having!
seriously LAZY!
here at nad's house, watching shrek the third.
still don'tknow whether to go home and get ready for baby's friend's engagement ceremony or just go from here.
i guess, i'll go from home since i asked daddy for his permission.
but im not sure whether its granted or not.
anyways, i hope it is.
or else, im gonna be so dissapointed for not being able to accompany baby.
hmmm...

a week.

i haven't been doing this for long. don't know how long more. heh. but im sure it won't be that long though. see, im doing it now! xP
okok. hari raya haji weekend was fine. baby boo sent me home on the eve of raya. sampai lip. hah! bey die balek naek cab. and it costed him 27 buck! fuck kn?! kene midnight charge! okok. then the saturday tu kene dtg balek. coz ade korban. it was mummy's birthday seh! GRRR!!!!! :@ and the thing ended only at 9.30pm. wtf?! tell me, wtf?!! but at night, mummy, daddy, fadhli and abang fetched me from the bustop and off we went to simpang bedok for supper. i had spaghetti sausage carbonara, mummy had some sausage food which apparently i forgot, abang had steak, fadhli had fish and chips * MACAM PAHAM! * hah! and daddy had kacang pool je. then for the surprise part, abang bought mummy a from east point. cepat cepat pergi! mummy thought he went to the loo. hah! pergi loo dtg balek bwk cake ehh?!?! and fadhli was sweet, he asked daddy to buy fererro rocher and gave to mummy saying that he bought it. xP then balek, mummy and daddy and fadhli mkn cake. still got room for more food! hah! as soon as i changed, i catched the earliest train to lala land. MEKK!!! hahaha! and wake up the next morning, helping mummy prepare for swimming. we went to WILD WILD WET! gerek gilerr! it has been ages lah since i went there with my family! from 2pm to 730pm. hows that? ahah! then went home to put my stuff and went to meet baby boo at his place. he tire me out. TOTALLY! made me walk about here and there! then home and lala land. weekdays were usual. school and stuff. but this is an extra point! whereby baby boo made me extremely angry! grr!!! don't wish to talk about it lah! hmpf! ok. and today was supposed to meet him again. prolly go out for dinner. but till this very moment, he still havent finish work! hmmm... tmrw then. im supposed to be doing my part of the psycho project, but imblogging away. ok. no more side tracks ehh?!?!
BYE!!

p.s., night angels, please please guard my baby boo with your lives! SAYANG DIE TAWU!